Today was a day of bad choices and good choices. I ate 2 McDonalds cheese burgers but then I ate an apple. I ate a Cupcake Co.'s delicious keylime pie concoction. Then I went to Chili's Bar & Grill and ate a Quesadilla Explosion salad, which is one of the lowest calorie choices on the menue. I feel bad about the burgers and guilty about the cupcake but the apple and salad cause me to feel a tad bit smug. Crazy you say? A little irrational? Maybe. But what a great life would I have if I could figure out how to have my keylime cake and eat it to!?
While I've heard from several of you that you're worried about me because I'm not eating right the reality is, I have to do this my way one day at a time. If there is one thing I've learned from this process it's this: for every person who has lost weight, there is a different idea of what I should do to lose weight. Since I can't possibly do everything every person tells me I should do, I have to figure out what works best for me and my lifestyle. And the way I figure that out is by trial and error.
One thing is absolutely true about my life style - I have GOT to figure out how to lose weight by eating out 60% of the time. That's because about 60% of my life is spent traveling or just not at home at meal times. So all the folks who tell me I'll never lose weight unless I cook all my own meals and who say I must strictly monitor all the calories I consume are just going to have to get over that craziness right now!
I'm getting ready to go to the General Assembly of the Christian Church (Disciples of Christ). I will be traveling with youth, I will be staying in a hotel, I will be attending banquets where I have no choice in what I will eat and I an going to have to figure out how to maneuver through all that like bomb specialist walking through a mine field. There is very little planning ahead that can take place so every step I take will come with its own combo of decisions.
I'm looking forward to the challenge and I think I'm going into it with a good attitude. I have high hopes for a successful week. So, keep me in your prayers and I'll keep you in mine. And anyone who's reading this who's planning on being at the G.A feel free to bring your walking shoes and join me in a lap around the Convention Center!
Peace, Love, and Keylime Cupcakes!
Laura
(P.S. Normally I am obsessive about proof reading my stuff before I post it, but since I've been using my phone, that's become kind of difficult. Please forgive any misspelled words, typos, and grammatical mistakes. While I often lie awake obsessing about them, there's not much I can do short of deleting the whole post. So, thank you for your lack of judgement! LH)
Trish, I can honestly say I've never felt judged by you. I'm sorry the bulimia had reared it's ugly head again and it sounds like you're doing the right things to get through it. Eating disorders are so similar and can also be so different. In most cases focusing too much on what you're eating, constant weighing, and calorie counting is dangerous. In my case it's imperative because my eating disorder involves choosing my food emotionally and putting absolutely no thought into what our how much I'm eating. Either way, none of us treats food like a necessary fuel source the way we should.
ReplyDeleteI really hope your day today does not suck and I hope you got plenty of sleep last night!
I'll just say again, it is so amazing you are sharing all of this with us! That takes a whole other level of awareness. And by the way, I don't think you misspelled anything in this post. : )
ReplyDeleteHi honey! Hope you're having an awesome time at G.A. Your comment about banquets and having no choice struck a cord in me. The way I see it, we always have a choice and succeeding is just that - about making the right and best choices for the goal - weight loss - we have in mind. Every time we - and I say we cause I'm talkin about me - put a bite in our mouth, we have made a choice. At the banquet if you're served chicken coated with breadcrumbs - you can remove the coating. If you have mashed potatoes give them to a skinny minny at your table. Eat half your dessert -- you get my drift. Good choices
ReplyDeleteI believe if we keep making the BEST small choices, eventually we'll reach our goal! With God's help and support! Love you lots. Be blessed.
Wow, it's a Virginia Highlands reunion around here! This is an example of a great thing the internet can do!
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